Still here…

Hello, I thought I’d better post something new here, just to show I hadn’t abandoned being the photographer called Bear R Humphreys.

Life is generally good but I have had a string of MS-based fatigue relapses over the new year season that have kept me from really getting enthusiastic about anything at all really.

I have managed a few articles on my ‘funny’ blog but having a sleep isn’t far away once I’ve spent a morning concentrating on that.

Saying that, I have managed little pockets of photographic based entertainments occasionally, largely when Mrs H has taken responsibility for the dog walking so I can get more mentally involved in the one other thing I can manage at a time.

For me, successfully creating, trying things and losing yourself with a camera, is a process that I can only manage properly when that is all my brain is concentrating on doing. Adding playing with the dog, throwing things – and often walking to collect an abandoned ball myself every three or four minutes – to the mental fatigue of keeping balanced myself is fairly wearing on the synapses and I can’t get into the necessary head space.

Anyway, I managed some shots over this weekend, a fine morning following the recent snow storms that made a mockery of going off to collect Mrs H’s car that she had to park and abandon, snowbound and immovable, in the next village just three days earlier.

I have uploaded some variants on to my Redbubble store for purchase here.


13 thoughts on “Still here…

  1. Good to hear from you, I was thinking just yesterday of asking Mr Bryntin if he’d seen you lately and how you were.

    Is there a way you can make the photography less intensive somehow, so it doesn’t require so much concentration? I realise saying this that many of us, I think both of us included, enjoy that immersion and escape almost that photography can bring, so by lessening it, it might make the whole act less appealing and rewarding. Just wondering if there’s a middle ground somewhere, where you can still enjoy being out with a camera, without the usual intensity required? Then return to “full on” photography when you have the energy and inclination again?

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    1. Hi Dan… I think the difficulty for me lies in my mental ‘fitness’, and in ways that healthy people possibly don’t realise.

      The MS messes with my brain to the extent that standing, walking and simply balancing, are acts which my motor system and brain has to spend a lot more energy processing, and is a more deliberate and conscious act, than a healthy person even realises is going on, because to them it’s automatic.

      (This is one of those occasions when a simple comment doesn’t do the answer justice… which we have had before haven’t we? 😉 )

      Anyway, we’ll leave it as generally my brain can process how it is all working, and keep it working relatively well, for about an hour and a half… if that is all it’s doing.

      Add thinking about exposure, composition etc, plus the looking out for photographic possibilities etc, the buffer quickly fills up.

      So yes, if I could get Mrs H to wheel me to a favoured place and then leave me alone for a couple of hours, that would be great. 😉

      You can ask her though…

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      1. I can imagine the conversation…

        Mrs H – Fancy going to the beach for a couple of hours to take some photos?
        Mr H – Yes please.
        Mrs H – Ok, you know where the car keys are.

        Seriously though, I understand how MS affects you in the way you’ve explained it, so I can see that any further processing for photography becomes too much of an ask.

        Have I asked you before if you’re familiar with Michael Nobbs? He’s been writing about creating (and living) with very limited energy for years. His most recent home online is https://www.gogently.co/

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    1. Thank you Christine.
      I hope your friend can continue to enjoy her life without too much disruption. Mine (and every individual has different experiences and symptoms) has had a relatively light effect on things really compared to some, so I know I am ‘lucky’ that it is that way so far.

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  2. Many of your photographs are quite unearthly, Bear. You have a certain knack of setting a mood. My browse thru the store proved very fruitful, but must select *one*. Doing some redecorating (masking more like) and would love one of your pics on the wall.

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    1. Very kind of you to say so Wilt, thank you.

      I hope there is something there that suits. I’m also happy to add anything that you see here on the site but can’t find on there for sale by request too, so that’ll make things even harder for you!

      And if you think these are ‘other worldly’, just wait until I unleash the really abstract stuff…(if I ever do). That’ll get everyone confused… 🙂

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  3. It WILL confuse me, I’ll warrant, but no more than the confusion I endure when life throws me a you-know-what or Mrs. W rearranges the furniture.

    I paint abstracts, which seems to suit my interior thoughts. Perhaps we are like-minded in that respect a little.

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